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So now I have more drama in my life. Completely uncalled-for drama. and it had to go down Friday afternoon. When I really started managing Millerville. When I was waiting for my boss to come and do my interview for the promotion. Didn’t happen and I’m concerned about how Friday went down. I was so shaky and upset that I could barely do regular crap, much less make schedules and wait for him to get there for a serious interview. I feel like I let people down, for some reason. Probably because I got phone calls and text messages saying I let people down. ; ) That’s not the people I mean, though. Lameness.

So I’m scum. and I’m a terrible friend/family member. Whatever. Thanks for ruining one of the most important things thats happening in my life right now with some of the stupidest shit that’s happened in my life in a while. I hope you choke on the words you made me want to die with. How’s karma working out for you, there?

I hate people. No I don’t but I wish I did so I could just be alone and happy.

Come back. : )

Happy Independence Day!

1) I love love love today. Patriotic music and barbecue smells everywhere! It’s a hot day, so I’m sitting inside cleaning and taking breaks with the intrawebs. I have no real plans for today except to go out to see Elvin Killerbee tonight. I know Seth and I will go and get fireworks, but I don’t know where we’ll play with them. There are a few options that mostly depend on other people. I know I want a margarita. Yes!

2) I really hope I won’t be going out tonight alone. It sounds like that may be the case. Hm. Well, even if I do go out alone, I’ll be out and not really alone anyway. I doubt it. She’ll go. We’ll have fun. Tomorrow we’ll regret having so much fun, but it will probably be funny.

3) I found out some stupid shit about a supposed friend and her real intentions regarding her ’surprise visit’ Sunday. I’ve been ignoring her (millions of) calls and I got a new number anyway, so I may not have to speak to her again. If I wanted friends like her, I’d go back to high school. No thanks! I hope she decides to stay where the hell she is from now on.

4) I need a new job. Life sucks when you’re broke.

Within 5 minutes of each other, I swear:

Customer - Do you have a 48 hour cleanse?

Me - is that the brand name?

C -  no

M - We have this 2 day cleanse…

c- (cutting me off) No! No! That’s way too long.

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Customer2 - Do you have potassium? My doctor says I need to take 40mg.

Me - We have a 99 mg.

C2 - That’s not going to be enough. I need 40mg. (continues to say other things indicating that she has no idea 40 is less than 99)
M - ?

… and I really like her. We seem to have a lot in common and I want to hang out with her. But she talks about him. He whom I’ve spent the last year unsuccessfully trying to forget about. The boy I happily deleted from my phone only to spend an hour rummaging through my desk for his phone number a month later. The boy I actually can’t go a whole day without thinking about multiple times; even in my sleep; even when I’m with someone else. The only thing holding me back from what seems like a really decent friendship is him. Thanks for somehow having the power to infiltrate my life from 2486 miles away without actually being a part of it.

mm sangria.

When did the Suicide Girls lower their standards? I was going through the Flickr account for SG, and too many of them either look like a regular softcore porno chick with a lip ring, or a crackhead with a ghetto tattoo of her boyfriend’s name. There are still some hot hot hot ones, but damn. also, I saw a girl that looked almost exactly like my 16 year old cousin. Call me grossed out.

Also, does anyone know of a moisturizer that won’t make me break out. I break out super easily. I need SPF. Also also. I know to use oil free and I’ve tried ones with salicylic acid. they’re both not winners. I prefer experience.

    I had an interview at 1PM today. It’s the first interview I’ve had for anything anywhere near BFE, which is where I currently live. When people say “I’m way out in BFE” they could probably stop by my house for tea on their way to somewhere better. Seriously. Middle of nowhere.

Even though the job is near my house, the interview was in Baton Rouge. That’s fine. It’s worth the trip. I showed up there early, had an awkward interview of course, and took my tests. I start tomorrow at noon instead of Monday so I can get everything on a slower day. Everything went wonderfully until I was about to walk out the door. I don’t know why I didn’t see it coming, but the manager(I think) caught me and told me that when he called the place to tell them I’d be starting tomorrow, they informed him that they had gone through multiple staffing companies and they didn’t need anyone anymore. Yep. That’s the fucking story of my life. it was so hard not to cry in front of those people. I’m just sick of something like this, something completely out of my control happening last minute once I have my hopes up.

So then I’m so upset, I went the wrong way on the interstate. By the time I realized it, I had ended up in Hammond, which is FAR away.  Bring on the tears. I stopped and got a HUGE chocalatey cappuccino to drown my sorrow. It didn’t work. The cappucino was fantastic, though.

When I got BACK onto the interstate going the right way, the rain started. This wasn’t rain. I’ve heard that when it rains it’s angels crying. Well, today the angels were dealing with some serious depression. All of them. visibility was zero. none. a car passed me up and just disappeared. I was terrified. I had to drive ALL the way back from Hammond going between 35 and 40 on the 70mph interstate. I was an hour late picking Seth up.

When I finally got home, Gary accused me of being mean, when I was absolutely not. Way to make it all about you. Thanks. That just was it for me. I went to bed. I’m feeling a bit better now. I drew some, made some iPhone wallpapers  (which I will be posting next)   and made cheesecake.

I think I should make a list of books I’ve read this year. I need to do something to hold myself accountable to read more. I’ve seriously only read 3 books so far. So sad. Especially since I have had SO much free time. It doesn’t feel like it, but I do. I always feel like I have less free time when I have nothing but it.

  For the past few weeks, a cat has been hanging around near my house. The poor thing has been living under an abandoned house next to mine. I saw her another time cuddled up next to a dog across the street. A few days ago, I walke doutside and she was sitting on the front steps meowing at me. She didn’t look like she was starving or anything, just like she wanted attention unlike all the skittish strays around here. I gave her some food and water, played with her some, put some sheets and rugs out on a chair and went to bed.

The next morning, she was still there, curled up in the sheets. she stuck around all day, and even came inside when I got home. she slept next to me for hours and slept in my bed all night.

I put an ad to re-home her up on craigslist and immediately got an email from a woman in my neighborhood saying someone was looking for a calico. She gave me her number, I called her and set up a time to meet her. I met her and handed the cat over. I didn’t want to, but I really can’t keep her. We’re planning on moving soon, and 3 cats looks like a lot.

K. Tonight I got a call from an excited girl named Kashonna. She was so excited that the cat, HER cat was alive, and was ready to have her back home. The cat’s name is Monet and she was VERY much missed. Here’s the kicker. The girl lives well over 15 miles away! i don’t know how she got that far so quickly. The girl said she disappeared about 3 weeks ago, which is when she showed up around here. The conspiracy theorist in me knows exactly how she got so far so quickly. The same way my cats that would never run away got so far away from my house. Yeah.

Anyway, I gave her the woman’s name and number and wished her well. I really do wish her well. I’d hate to lose such a sweet cute cat.