Didn’t go to MS, but my cat did. I hear he’s loving it and I have nothing to worry about where that’s concerned. I misses him. :/

Jade and I took the babies out today. It was tiresome, but I had fun. I’m pretty sure everyone else did, too. I got a new dress, a sweater, and some old lady shoes at the thrift store. Ooo. Jade now knows my old lady clothing obsession ,though. Woops.

It’s nice for Seth to play with children that aren’t bullies. Poor kid’s always getting talked to like he’s nothing around here.

I’m pretty sure I want to pursue TCM. I’m figuring it beats hair by far. It’s far more expensive and lengthy, but I think in the end I’ll feel way better about myself. Helping people be better instead of look better. I’m the most indecisive person in the world, though. I could change my mind and decide to be a kindergarten teacher tomorrow. And don’t think that isn’t right there in the back of my mind. In fact, I’m considering getting an associates degree in elementary education before I start TCM school. It’ll just look like I didn’t have a plan.

In the meantime, there is definitely some paperwork that needs to be processed. I’ve been procrastinating for a while.

I’m going out of town for the weekend. I have to bring morrisson to Ocean Springs, MS so he can be loved on a regular basis. I’m sad, but I know he needs it. I feel so guilty having him over there being lonely all day.

I kinda wish I wasn’t going, but I haven’t left this area in a while and probably need it.

   I saw a “For Rent” sign on my way home from work. The first part of it. The first 3 minutes of it. I was thinking, “Man, I could so be home right now.” Sliding the key in the lock. Click. Stepping into the house, greeted by my two fatasses. Pet pet. Kiss kiss. Yes. I had an apartment fantasy. Then I drove the next 40 minutes to sleep on a couch in Slaughter and wish I had gone the extra 20 minutesto sleep in a bed in Clinton.

   Shame, really.

   I have to work every day this week. Even Saturday.

   I can’t wait til I get used to the 40 hours. I need to rearrange my life a little. I have today off,  and it’s a really good thing. I am in PAIN. Could be where I found myself this morning. Not the most comfortable place to be sleeping, for sure. Probably better than in the bed with everyone else, though.

   The RSD gets back from vacation tomorrow, so I should know by then what’s going to happen with the promotion. I’m going to absolutely die if they decide against it. Die, and then find a new job that I can survive at.

I’m going to do a little bit of bartending again. I’m conversing with an old boss. I don’t do shit on Mondays, so there it is. I could be making money.

They don’t get it. They don’t know me like you do. They don’t care if I smile. They don’t know what it’s like to share life. I wish you were here. Life sucks without you. I’m so alone.

I was just looking through my messages on DeviantArt and found the winners to the “The World Ends With You” Square Enix contest. I’ve never even heard of this game. I’m not a gamer by any means, but I LOVED Kingdom Hearts AND Secret of Mana was my favorite game ever. I want want want to play The World Ends With You. I don’t have a DS, though! I’m just going to have to get one. Or borrow one. Or something.

Oh and by the way, Shiki is the cutest thing ever. Maybe I just want to watch her. That could SO be it. She reminds me of Yuffie. Only more urban. Not as hot, but way cute. I just called a video game person hot. Thats so not sane. Although, I’m not alone.