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Dear people I like,

I’m so sorry I haven’t been able to hang out lately. I know I seem like a big old flake, and I understand if you don’t even ask me to hang out anymore. Life has been so ridiculously lame lately. When I’m not running errands, I’m working. Living far away seems to be the root of my problems right now. I’m working on it. When things get easier and I learn to manage the little time I have, I really hope you’re all still there. Thanks for understanding, and if you don’t… thanks for not yelling at me. And for the awesome people I recently met, I swear I’m not always like this. 

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Dear assholes,

Get a fucking life and stop making mine suck.

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I feel so lonely lately, even though for the most part, I’ve been surrounded by family.  I know why. It’s something that sucks but I have no control over. He’s mad at me now because I said something about it (I told him I didn’t want to talk about it, but he insisted), but I think he knows I’m right.

I had the worst day at GNC yet on Friday. I can’t believe I even made it through it. Crying on the phone to your boss (and that’s just one of the three times I burst into tears that day) is really embarrassing. Having your boss be the only person you can tell about your real problems is pretty pathetic.  Having a boss that listens and encourages you to talk to her and actually makes you feel better is neat. Having something to blame such a rough patch on? Priceless.

I learned a lesson the hard way. I’m just not built for it.

I had chicken schwarma today. I had a good excuse! I made Jesse tried it because she had no idea.  Of course she loved it!

 I have a three day weekend this week. I wanted to take Lucy to the river today but everyone in my house, including Lucy, is asleep. Aunt Tammy was supposed to go with me, but she’s probably not feeling up to it. I’ll probably send her a text message and find out. I’m tired of sitting at home. I cleaned the whole house except Seth’s room, the porch, some of the yard, and Gary’s Jeep. I’ve been productive enough today.

Tomorrow we’ll be having a barbecue and  Easter egg hunt at Aunt Tammy’s. Should be fun!

    I got a job. I’m so sick of looking. It was really just starting to depress me really bad. The nice lady from GNC called me back. I’m glad i talked to her for so long when i applied, because I can just start on Monday. This is one step closer to finally moving out of the country. I can’t wait. Oh and the pay starts at minimum + commission, so it equals out to about $8/hr.  Not bad for starting at a retail position. Oh and minimum wage goes up two bucks (I think)  in July.

I’m home alone for the first time in a while. My cousin has been staying here for the past couple of weeks.  It’s cool because he isn’t like a lot of people that have stayed. He actually helps clean up and doesn’t leave blankets and shoes all over the place. I wouldn’t even be home alone if it wasn’t for one of my other cousins. The little fuck wouldn’t shut his mouth and leave me be so I just came home. I don’t live with him, so I don’t have to put up with his shit. Why is it that most people I know who are diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder are also completely unable to control themselves, and use it as an excuse to act however they please. I can control myself very well and never use my chemical imbalances to justify treating people like shit so it can’t be that fucking hard. Sure they don’t help, but a little self-control can go a long way.

The Bravery / Dax Riggs show is sold out. Boo. Saves me some cash, anyway.