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   I can’t be certain, but I think I’m done with the whole thing I’ve been doing lately. The going out all weekend crap. It’s making daytime life suck. I didn’t go out this weekend, and I feel great. Also, I need to quit smoking again. At least for a little while. =) Drinking can continue but at my house and at shows. And it should be wine and pretty beer (just for the hell of it). I don’t go to shows anymore and that’s scary. I’m losing myself, pretending it’s OK because nothing matters anymore. Like I’m just settling into crap. As if it’s going to stay that way. As if it won’t go up from here.

It will.