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I finished my school of retail selling course today. It took me all of two hours spread out over a week. If that. They give you 12 weeks from signing up to finish it. Are there people that suck at retail more than I do? Impossible, right?

I’m thinking about looking for a part time bartending job. There’s a little Mediterranean restaurant I like that’s hiring. Not sure if they’re looking for a bartender, but it’d be neat. I’m not sure I need to be working in a place that serves my favorite food in town, though. It could be disastrous. There’s always the place I used to work, but the area scares me a lot and gas prices are a little too high to be driving that far for work. I can’t believe I’m even thinking about having 2 jobs. That’s SO not me. I’d like to consider myself an active (or not so active) member of the work less party. I just don’t know if I can even survive on what I’m making now. Especially if I don’t stay in this cheap, crappy house. I’m probably going to need to get a roommate. I am super-grateful that I AM near most of my family so that I don’t have to put Seth in daycare so far. I really am just going to have to make sure I don’t work TOO much. I don’t want to get sucked into that. My mom will work 3 or 4 jobs at a time and be fucking MISERABLE. Don’t want that.

I drew in my sketchbook for the first time in a LONG time. Maybe I’ll get my creativity back. I think maybe I’ve just had so much crap on my mind and no real way to get rid of it. I am a better artist when i’m laid back. Stress doesn’t make me better the way it does some people. I am SO jealous of that. Stress clutters my mind and fucks up my zen. I drew a genie. She has bad hands and a horrible nose. She needs plastic surgery. I could just wish for her to be prettier!